today was the last day of school.
i felt a slight hint of sadness that we will all be graduating soon although i had been wanting to get out of AJ asap ever since i first stepped into the school.
but now, if given a choice, i would hope for my time in AJ to not end so soon.
cos i know that once i bid goodbye to my jc life, there will be much greater and harsher challenges ahead.
but choi, that doesn't mean i want to retain for another year. haha. i still want to graduate as a 2009 batch J2 student.

i won't say that these two years have been the best times of my life. neither are they the worst too, even though i used to think so.
i am glad that things had happened the way they happened.
i used to groan and mourn and get upset over every little unhappy stuff that happened to me, thinking that i must have been the most unlucky and lonely person on earth.
but now as i reflect back over the past couple of years, i realise they all happened for a good purpose. just that i was too ravaged by the negative side of it at that point of time that i failed to see the good side of it in the long term.
it was these not-so-good times that enable me to transform into a stronger and better individual.
i have become more independent and am not ashamed of being alone anymore.
i have become more accommodating to others and are more willing to accept one's flaws and embrace his/her good points.
i have come to learn who my true friends are and who are not.
i care more about my studies now than i was in sec school.

comparing the present me with myself 2 years ago, i am definitely a changed person now, for the better.
i am thankful that i was part of class 07/08 for i can't bear to imagine how it would be like if i were in some other classes instead.
i am thankful that i was a member of the guitar ensemble for besides having fulfilled my childhood wish of learning to play the guitar, i had made many true friends there.
if things hadn't happened the way they happened, my life would be totally different. it could have been better or worse.
but at least, i am happy with the way things are now. at least, i feel that my 2 years in jc hadn't gone into a waste. it was worth the roller coaster ride.
and one thing for sure, if things hadn't happened the way they happened, i wouldn't have met so many wonderful friends in AJ. and it would certainly be my loss.

all in all, i feel extremely contented.
now i choose to think i am the luckiest person on earth.
and once and for all,
thank you AJ for all the precious memories and valuable life lessons learned. :)
dunno why but it seems like a tradition that my nose gets over sensitive every saturday. i will always wake up to a running nose and i will be sneezing whole day long.
and with it comes drowsiness which makes me unble to study properly.
like today, i only managed to complete the revision worksheet for binomial series which has like 8 questions only........
this is super unproductive la.
my irritating troublesome nose has hindered my mugging process terribly. :(
i still have a long list of things that i had initially planned to revise by the end of this week.
looks like it's gonna go down the drain, again.

but i am happy cos my nose has made a tremendous recovery by 9pm and now, i feel as if nothing had happened. i feel like a healthy human being again! actually no, i still feel weak and restless. must be a cue that my body needs a rest now.
but no, cannot. haiyoh i want to study chem energetics first before i go to sleep. but apparently i can't concentrate any longer and that's why i am here blogging in the first place.

yesterday, after the horrible physics test which i spent almost half the time stoning for, caishi and i went to watch UP!
yes finally i got to watch a movie! :D although it wasn't ice age which i had long been wanting to watch, i was still satisfied cos UP was overwhelmingly fabulous.
it brought tears to my eyes more than a couple of times and it made me laugh a dozen of times.
heartwarming and hilarious. :)
actually come to think of it, like what caishi said, it seems quite stupid to shed tears over a cartoon.
haha but dun care la, i just enjoy watching such cartoon movies so much.
:D

it's 2am now.
will be meeting caishi to study at the lib tmr morning at like 10am.
sensibly speaking, i ought to go sleep soon and i think i should cos my back is going to break soon.
it is going to be another stressful sunday..

stress stress stress.

i hate my life now but i have to persevere.
21 more days to prelims and 11 more days to gp paper.....

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