just came back from aj concert and dinner with cheryl after that about one and half hour ago.
damn tired. trying to study abit of binomials now before going to sleep.
i'm sure gonna flunk the maths ct tmr. :/
dunno what i had done during the weekend.
it seems like i didn't do anything at all.
i didn't touch any of the homeworks.. didn't really study much for any upcoming tests next week..
but if you think i must have slacked throughout the weekend, it is not true either.
cos i didn't watch tv, didn't go out much except for the concert, didn't play or anything.
perhaps the only slacky thing i did was listening to too much music. :/
looking at the piles of homeworks that are left uncompleted/untouched makes me feel like puking.
and i can totally envision myself chionging for my final PI again tmr night.
aiyah heck care la.
i thought i could quickly go get some sleep after finish reading through my binomial notes.
but then, suddenly just out of nowhere, i got summoned to do the gpp. :(
but thennnn againnnnn, he didn't send me his work and i couldn't get through his phone.
i bet he went to sleep without remembering to send me his things or thinking that he didn't need to.
haiyah what am i supposed to do now?
grrrrrrrrrrr, i am so lost and confused.
two years better pass by quickly or else i can just die of suffocation.
this is assuming that i won't be taking more for than two years to complete my jc education i.e. not getting retained
:/
i have to admit it. things never turn out the way i plan it to be.
videos like these make my day! :D
Episode 1) Pizza Delivery
SpongeBob and Squidward are given orders to deliver a
pizza, but the two have a heck of a hard time trying to get
the pizza to its destination and before you know it they
are in the middle of nowhere.
Episode 2) The Paper
SpongeBob makes a great toy out of a gum wrapper, much to Squidward's chagrin.
Episode 3) Gary Takes a Bath
The day that Gary has to take a bath arrives, but Gary doesn't want to take a bath, and SpongeBob tries everything possible to make sure he takes a bath.
his singing gives me goosebumps.
he's my new idol. :D
yesterday was quite a nice day. :)
i almost laughed to death twice in the day. laughed until my back damn pain la.
the first time was because of caishi about her hair dye incident.
the second time was because of the tissue incident with cheryl.
haha! xD
perhaps the only real depressing thing that happened yesterday, discounting some minor ones, was the math test.
couldn't do most of the questions especially ap & gp.
and stupid me didn't really know how to use the gc calculator.
so i spent much time figuring which keys to press.
haha it was such a disaster.
hmm i better get mentally prepared for the high possibility of me not being able to pass my promos and getting retained as a result.
well, if that happens....
hmm i think i shouldn't be too pessimistic for now.
had dinner with cheryl at sumo house yesterday.
we ordered so much food that we couldn't finish them all in the end.
haha. caught up with her a little.
talked about school stuff and the upcoming concerts and many other things.
haiz.. how i wish we can still be in the school together.. :(
a smiley face drawn by caishi.
its right eye is actually a pre-existing tiny dried blood on my wrist.
then she just added another eye and a smile to it so that it looked like a smiley face.
haha oh man, caishi can be jermaine no. 2.
both of them do stupid things that make me laugh. :D
on wednesday, i left school early cos i wasn't feeling well both physically and emotionally. :/
had a short nap and a talk with my parents after that.
got an idea of the level of expectations they had of me.
actually i was a little motivated after that.
but apparently, it has started to wear off again by now.. :/
tried to do dynamics tutorial.
spent two hours or so trying to solve the questions.
and the outcome was i only managed to solve the first question and the rest i dunno how to do.
haiz physics is driving me crazy.
:/
let's see what other homeworks i have
-newspaper articles
-standard curves tutorial
-inequalities tutorial
-catching up of chem topics
-study for physics spa
-refine my ideas for PI
-study weathering
-read up on some gp stuff
...
:[
let's see my timetable for next monday
(7.45am)
-pw lecture/tutorial
-chem lecture
-maths lecture
-half hour break
-civics tutorial
-gp tutorial
-one hour lunch break
-civics lecture
-one and a half hour of geog tutorial
-physics spa makeup
-PE
(6.15pm)
:(
this is what i mean when i say that school is making me feel depressed.
i just need to think of it and my mood will change from bad to worse.
i feel like running away from everything
it can truly happen.... only in my dreams.
i hate mondays,
i love fridays;
finally managed to finish my geog essay under extremely uncomfortable and difficult circumstances.
my nose is as red as cherry now and i am wrapping myself up like it's winter.
:(
i aim to not blog for some time or at least for the next few days.
here are some of pictures of my precious little darlings :)
pinky-si
piggy-chou
chicky-vonne
bunny-wan
froggy-leo
elephanty-mon
and
brownie-pei (picture not available)
they are 100% handmade by me!
haha most of my free time were spent sewing all these during my long long holidays since december last year.
there are two more which i haven't finished making yet and currently have no more time to. :(
haiz i should have bought a few more packets last time..
haha maybe i can create some on my own next time.
maybe a giraffe? zebra? donkey?
haha
hmm anw, each of them symbolizes a cherished friendship. :))
how have yall been, my little children?
x)
these two days, we had no lessons because of the aesthetic week.
went for the resilience workshop and attended the nyaa talk until 5 plus yesterday.
today, i went for the guitar workshop which i had signed up with tianhe. :)
learnt some strumming and played some simple songs.
it was enjoyable to me although some may think it was quite boring. :D
the instructor was so round, cute and those very ci xiang kind of person.
i realised he is also the conductor of our school's guitar club whom i hadn't got to meet yet until today. haha
went back to st nicks, yet again, with jingwen, wanyi, jermaine and peiling.
it was my third time already in two weeks. :O
took our o level certs, ate orange bowl and then walked a little around the school, specifically the toilets. haha
then visited the band with leonie and elaine. :)
yeah.
i really miss life in st nicks.
the atmosphere there is just so peaceful and slow-paced, i like. :/
just now during dinner, i scared my mother a little when i suddenly sighed out of nowhere while eating.
haha. i was thinking of the piles of homework which are as high as mount everest and the normal school lessons which will resume next week.
my undone homeworks include:
-geog essay
-9 newspaper articles (the amount accumulated after three weeks)
-dynamics tutorial
-redo binomial tutorial
-chem tutorial
-study for next week's maths test
-standard curve tutorial
blah blah...
and i can't start doing my work until sunday.
cos tmr's my mother's birthday and as usual, we will be going to malaysia to celebrate.
so i have to rush everything within one day again, which is impossible.
i give up. you can call me a slacker if you like now.
things just don't go my way;
i am exhausted.
i think i cared too much, spent too much time thinking about negative stuff and had been too nice until i kept hurting myself every now and then.
because for most of the time, i have been so used to keeping these well-hidden emotions within myself, people can hardly understand how i feel.
i feel so.. alone and lousy. ;(
-was struggling to finish my PI draft last night until 1 plus in the morning. x/
-my right eyelid showed signs of threatening to droop again due to insufficient sleep and STRESS! xO
-fire drill ate away more than half hour of chem lecture which was a delight
-it was mentally challenging to try to stay awake during the GP tutorial
-1 1/2 hours of geog lesson was really torturing
-brought badminton racket today but didn't play at all
-3/4 of my life was gone after running 7 rounds during pe
-spent the rest of the time recovering inside the toilet cubicle; it really felt like how caishi had described, being baked in an oven. :D
-too tired to do any work
-hence the best thing to do is to go to sleep now....
didn't go to school today.
last night i slept early at 10 plus without doing any homework. sms-ing long messages to cheryl was enough to make me feel very tired. haha
actually wanted to wake up at 4am again to do my gp homework and study for the chem test but my alarm clock failed to wake me up.
then i became slightly half-consious by 5. but my urge to wake up was overcomed by this unusually strong sense of drowsiness.
managed to wake up briefly at 6 plus to ask my mother, "can you let me rest for one day?" and went back to sleep again without waiting for her answer.
haha
pros and cons of being absent from school today:
pros
-no need to hand in my gp homework by this morning which i haven't done
-no need to sit for the chem test which i haven't studied
-take my mind off the quitting-of-the-band issue which has been making my life miserable all this while
cons
-miss two lectures and three tutorials
-unable to go the reality martial arts session today. i had already missed the last two sessions consecutively because of band. :(
felt very dizzy now. sigh
anyway, on wednesday we had our I & E day.
we spent the whole day walking around to various booths playing all sorts of games.
if you ask me whether i would rather have lessons or not, eh i think i will say, i would rather have no school and stay at home. heh
after that went for guitar practice.
it was my first time taking out my guitar again after deserting it in the store room for two years.
something funny happened during the prac.
the teacher was instructing me to tune my guitar.
so i plucked the first string. thang
"tighten." thang "somemore." thang "a bit more.." thang "more..." piak!
my string snapped. for the rest of the day, i played without the first string.
haha. so that was how my first real guitar prac went.
yesterday was a fine day.
we had a 1 1/2 hr free period towards the end because mr leong was absent.
zijing, caishi and i left the school early and went causeway point. :)
we ate at pizzahut for lunch and walked around a little before i returned to yck again to meet peiting and jingwen to go back st nicks together.
haiz i feel very pek cek with my phone now.
i have tried thousand and million times but i still can't connect my phone to the computer.i can only upload the photos through my brother's phone. only those in the format which his phone can support.
celebrating elaine's birthday! :)
FIESTA
leonie, cheryl and i talking in the band room. :D
my sis and i :)
i feel like my head is going to explode anytime.
shall go back to sleep now. :/
oh my god.
i have met the most unreasonable person in my life.
he is such a monster.
can't he just let us go?!