Tuesday, August 21, 2007 @7:39 PM
prelims are coming in about 9 days' time! but i am not in any state of anxiety yet.
life has been all about revision tests, mock tests, revision tests and mock tests.
but cheryl had enlightened me so much that i treat tests like a peanut now.
haha i decided to use peanut because it reminds me of a scene in pirates of the caribbean: at world's end movie where two jack sparrows were fighting over a small peanut. so funny :D
i just bought the latest soundtrack recently.
quite nice but the music sounds very different from pirates 1's.
the pirates 1 soundtrack sounds more majestic, more band-ish. :)
whereas this one sounds more melodious, more orchestral. :)
i feel so contented. i just had steamed egg for dinner just now.
haha my topic for oral last week was on food.
i talked about how i prefer eating vegetables to meat and the examiner asked me whether i am likely to become a vegetarian in the future.
my reply was something like i think so but if i were to become one, i would miss eating eggs the most.
haha come to think of it now, the conversation was super stupid and that was one of the rare moments when i actually tried to talk so much, forcing something out of my head.
the first question they asked was rather weird. do you like food?
of course, any normal people would say yes right.
but now as i am thinking maybe there can be an alternative in answering that question.
maybe i could say no i don't like food at all because i think food is disgusting. i don't understand why people have to eat food in order to survive. i don't even understand why people have stomachs in the first place. why can't people be like robots who can operate by consuming electricity from batteries? why must we eat food?..
haha i wonder how the examiners would react if i was crazy enough to answer like that. xD
ahhh.
Tuesday, August 14, 2007 @11:02 PM
the most dreaded part of the o level exams is finally over!
ORALi feel terribly relieved and overjoyed now.
Saturday, August 11, 2007 @5:44 PM
i feel like giving up.
whenever i try to study something, i just cannot focus.
i don't know what's wrong with me.
i seriously don't know what i am doing.
and i have so many things to worry about.
my o level oral is just next tuesday and i am not sure whether i am prepared for it.
there are history and emaths mock next week. and maybe goeg too.
what should i do?
study at my own pace?
i feel so useless.
i feel so unhappy.
the more i feel stressed the more i feel like running away.
and the more i feel running away the more i would exempt myself from studying too hard
and then i leave everything at the last minute.
what exactly do i want?
my life seems so goal-less. no, actually i tried to set many goals in front of me, but i really don't know which one i should kick my ball into.
sometimes being too much of a thinker is not very good.
i begin to suspect if i am a rather abnormal person.
i usually have this small little world of fantasy of mine.
sometimes i will sink into my world and drift away from the reality.
i'm afraid one day nobody can ever pull me back to real life again.
this is the result of cooping myself up all day at home.
without doing anything productive.
played badminton with my brother just now.
feeling a lot better after that.
i had just converted energy from one form to another. is frustration a form of energy? i suppose so.
i learnt this from peiling. she says whatever you have learnt in school, you must learn how to put it into good use and apply it to your daily life.
so i have just applied my knowledge of physics to the game of badminton too.
ought to go back study now.
maybe i should go get cheryl her elmo balloon tmr. :)
Tuesday, August 07, 2007 @10:21 PM
"papaya is not good for your body! it will make you a papa. you should learn to eat mamaya!"
haha elaine is so funny. :)