Saturday, August 11, 2007 @5:44 PM
i feel like giving up.
whenever i try to study something, i just cannot focus.
i don't know what's wrong with me.
i seriously don't know what i am doing.
and i have so many things to worry about.
my o level oral is just next tuesday and i am not sure whether i am prepared for it.
there are history and emaths mock next week. and maybe goeg too.
what should i do?
study at my own pace?
i feel so useless.
i feel so unhappy.
the more i feel stressed the more i feel like running away.
and the more i feel running away the more i would exempt myself from studying too hard
and then i leave everything at the last minute.
what exactly do i want?
my life seems so goal-less. no, actually i tried to set many goals in front of me, but i really don't know which one i should kick my ball into.
sometimes being too much of a thinker is not very good.
i begin to suspect if i am a rather abnormal person.
i usually have this small little world of fantasy of mine.
sometimes i will sink into my world and drift away from the reality.
i'm afraid one day nobody can ever pull me back to real life again.
this is the result of cooping myself up all day at home.
without doing anything productive.
played badminton with my brother just now.
feeling a lot better after that.
i had just converted energy from one form to another. is frustration a form of energy? i suppose so.
i learnt this from peiling. she says whatever you have learnt in school, you must learn how to put it into good use and apply it to your daily life.
so i have just applied my knowledge of physics to the game of badminton too.
ought to go back study now.
maybe i should go get cheryl her elmo balloon tmr. :)