Friday, June 13, 2008 @9:00 PM
i had never cried so much in a day before.
cried for practically the whole day today. and it was damn tiring.
cried in the afternoon which made me feel so exhausted that i fell asleep on the bed for one hour plus. it felt so good to sleep. i even had a dream. some random ridiculous dream as usual.
then woke up and wrote a few maths notes.
after a short while, i started to feel uneasy again so i decided to go out for a walk.
climbed the hill in front of my house.
sat there watching the sunset while thinking through alot of things and crying non-stop.
finally decided to go back home when the sight of the descending sun was gone.
came back home, cried abit again.
and now, i'm sitting in front of this computer, feeling rather drowsy. my eyes feel damn pain and heavy..........
but i've got to finish revising maths by today.
one and a half more topics to go.
and i'm determined to start a little on physics too.
i dunno i can hold on for how long.
i need to perservere.
i dunno whether i should go for the famine camp tmr.
it's quite pointless for me to go in such a state. i dun want to go there and and look emo. moreover, getting more aware of global hunger and poverty will make myself even more depressed too. maybe i should just forget about my 30 bucks and my initial sparks of interest about it.
on the other hand, i have an urge to disappear from this house very much.
argh i really dunno.
okay i'm slightly more awake now.
i'm not going to have faith in anyone too easily from now onwards